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29 September 2010 @ 08:27 pm
fic: you belong with him  
Fandom: Fringe

Characters: Olivia Dunham, Lincoln Lee, Charlie Francis

Pairing: Peter/Olivia

A/N: This one is for Flor (myflower ), just because you're awesome and you love Fringe so much. I'm a little rusty at writing and this is unbeta'ed so forgive me for the quality.

 


You grow, you roar
Although disguised
I know you

You'll learn to know


 

Your name is Olivia Dunham. You work for the Fringe Division with Charlie Francis and Lincoln Lee. Your boyfriend’s name is Frank.

And yet in the back of your mind, this all feels wrong. But like a dream upon waking up, the reasons for why that is are slowly drifting beyond your reach.

~~~

It happens one day unexpectedly. A glimpse into some other life.

“How’s your wife?” You ask Charlie and he stares at you like you’ve gone crazy again.

“Liv, I’m not married.”

You can feel Lincoln’s eyes boring into the back of your skull, his worry apparent even without one look at him. The room is as quiet as Boston encased in amber and filled with the same eerie chill.

You pause for a moment, probing the recesses of your mind, searching for the reason for your words.

His wife had red hair and a sweet smile. You’d had dinner at their house. They were thinking about having a baby.

But that was wrong, all wrong somehow, something from a dream perhaps. And no one would believe you otherwise. So you did the only thing you could think to do; you cracked a joke.

“Aren’t you and that worm in your left arm pretty attached? I thought you two were married by now.”

A snort of laughter erupted from Lincoln. Charlie looked relieved, but he still managed to act disgruntled as he replied, “at least I can settle down. With a face like that Lincoln, it may never happen for you.”

You smile as they fling harmless insults at each other, but inside you still feel shaken.

That night you dream about Charlie with one bullet hole in his head. The blood trailing down his forehead never stops flowing.

~~~

Every night you come home to Frank waiting for you. You love Frank, although you never seem to see him enough. You’ll probably end up getting married even if it matters little to either of you. You don’t get scared, it would be hard to deal with your line of work if you did, but having Frank is a comfort that maybe you can have something in your life that doesn’t have to be frozen in amber.

But lately when he kisses you, you feel someone else’s name on the tip of your tongue. His touch doesn’t comfort you in the way that it did. In retrospect, he tastes all wrong.

You’d heard of trauma patients or survivors of cancer feeling differently about their partners after their incident, but you know in your heart that that isn’t it. Though you know everything about him, it’s as if you’ve never really known him at all.

And for the first time in what feels like forever, you’re scared.

~~~

It’s your birthday. You get home early to find a card in a white envelope slipped underneath your door. It should mean nothing, just a note, something for your birthday, but you feel yourself trembling as you reach down to pick it up off your floor. You stare at it for what seems like hours, afraid to open and see the words that are echoing through your mind, “thinking of you”.  These words haunt you though you hardly know why.

When Frank walks through the door and asks what you have in your hand, you muster the courage to open it. Inside the card, it simply says, “Happy Birthday Sweetheart! Love Mom”.

“It’s a card from my mom,” you say weakly.

And suddenly, although you can’t place the motive, you understand why every time you fire off a round, you never miss.

~~~

You’re invited to The Secretary’s house for the first time. Although you believe he loves his wife, you know he rarely stays there. Their bond was quickly severed after the loss of their son.

As you wait for dinner, Mrs. Bishop takes you on a tour around their house. It’s gorgeous, with an overlook over the water and stunning architecture. And yet, you can’t help but notice how empty it feels.

In the living room, there are pictures on the table. Mrs. Bishop as a child, her wedding with The Secretary, the two of them posing with a young boy, presumably their son. But the last one is the one that catches your attention. It’s a candid pose, taken when he had been here only a few months before. He was studying some papers on the table, focused, his head bowed in concentration. You pick it up, absently stroking the frame.

“Did you meet my son Peter?” Mrs. Bishop asks as she looks over your shoulder.

“Only briefly,” you murmur. It’s what your head is telling you, that you meet him at the DOD and took him to his apartment. He was the boy from the stories.

And yet, you know he plays the piano, his favorite music is jazz, and that he carries a coin around in his pocket. He’s sarcastic and kind and maybe just a little bit lost. Inexplicably, he is the most familiar thing to you in this whole world.

And suddenly, you know with absolute clarity that despite everything your mind is telling you, you belong with him.


 
 
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( 36 comments — create the dream )
mrs_nerimon: p/o- holdmrs_nerimon on September 30th, 2010 12:53 am (UTC)
I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS FIC AND NOTHING BUT CAPSLOCK CAN EXPRESS IT.

whew that was just fantastic! i've been thinking about how she still has some of her own memories, and she's going to slip up sometime and say something that's only true in her universe and this story took all of my thoughts and made them into one fantabulous fic.

the last line broke my heart. liv better not think she's altliv for very long, because i want her to remember peter asap.

gahhhh this show is so life-consuming.
menzjj815: po kissmenzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 01:05 am (UTC)
AWWW YAYYYYY!! I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT!!

This has been running in my head ever since last week because I know that she can't let go of her old self that easily. And I just know Peter is what's gonna help her remember.

and seriousslllyyy, I can't get this show out of my head right now lol.
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menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 01:24 am (UTC)
thank you for your comment and for reading! I hope this is the road they take! I would love to see how they do it because it would be way more amazing than anything I could write.
Heather: fringe-getting dunhamedhjea on September 30th, 2010 01:33 am (UTC)
And suddenly, although you can’t place the motive, you understand why every time you fire off a round, you never miss.

This line is chilling, but absolutely perfect for Olivia (and Alitlivia). Thanks for this fic!
menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 01:48 am (UTC)
Thank you for reading! I really liked that line too. It's actually a lot harder to write an Olivia who thinks she's another Olivia but is remembering who she really is than I thought, but I figured that line was a good blend of the two characters.
emetherealityoctobre09 on September 30th, 2010 01:36 am (UTC)
I really really loved this! Now I really can't wait until tomorrow! Great job!
menzjj815: olivia very lightmenzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 01:48 am (UTC)
I can't wait for tomorrow either! thanks for reading :D
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:09 am (UTC)
O.M.G

This is perfect. You seriosuly have a gift, girl, you captured her perfectly. OMG. I absolutely loved it.

AND I LOVE YOU. It makes me happy to see that you're as obsessed as I am because I seriously can't stop fangirling over this show.

THANK YOU. ILY.
menzjj815: olivia very lightmenzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:30 am (UTC)
OMG THANK YOUUUUUU!!! I LOVE YOU TOO!

I'm so glad that I have you to fangirl with jsyk. and thank you so much for reading
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:33 am (UTC)
Girl, I have a problem, I'm too obsessed, especially with Olivia. I would seriously only make arts of her but I'm afraid people will punch me in the face lmao.
menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:38 am (UTC)
I WOULDN'T! But yeah, it's definitely a problem on my end too. I think my tumblr has just become a fringe appreciation blog (but mainly Olivia because omg, HBIC. she's my 2nd fav character OF ALL TIME). AND WE'VE ONLY SEEN THE PREMIERE. I have a feeling after tomorrow I might just implode.
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:40 am (UTC)
lolol mine too, it's like 90% fringe, that's why I've been losing a million followers but idccc lol. And omg she's so amazinggg, she's definitely up there with my jack and meredith loveee <3 And I know, we've seen nothing of her epicness yet, I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED.
menzjj815: peter scruffmenzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:46 am (UTC)
I COULD LOSE ALL MY FOLLOWERS AND I WOULDNT CARE. as long as you and me still fangirl on tumblr, I'm all set ngl. plus us Fringies stick together on there.
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:47 am (UTC)
omg yes, I love how many people love fringe, it makes me so happy that I've found so many fangirls lol, aaaand the anna/olivia love on tumblr is amazinggg, it's so nice to see that people understand your feelings lmao
menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:49 am (UTC)
i agree. that's why I've pretty much totally lost base with fandom on anywhere except tumblr because the best fans are there. it's so negative on FanForum right now.
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:52 am (UTC)
omg it is? I'm glad I'm not there then! It's a shame, that was the one place where Lost was always positive and happy. I'm glad I have you though, I'm never a negative person when it comes to shows so we can enjoy it together :P
menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:55 am (UTC)
yeah there's a lot of Peter hate going on right now. LOL. which is mainly why I had that rant the other day about negative Fringe fans. but yeah it's a shame it can't be more like the Lost fandom was.
flor. [ex florparapluie]myflower on September 30th, 2010 02:57 am (UTC)
ooh I thought it was that, it's absurd though, we've seen what? 2 seconds? there's no way someone has enough material to make a concious decision to hate him =/ I trust the writers and I mean, we both have some experience with complicated couples that don't have an easy journey and I can say the end is much more enjoyable that way.
menzjj815menzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:30 am (UTC)
well after seeing the episode, I can understand why Peter is fooled. ngl, she would have fooled me.

I trust the writers. like a lot.
The Queen of Smite: Character: Alt!Oliviaspaciireth on September 30th, 2010 02:10 am (UTC)
Ah, I LOVE introspective stuff like this! Awesome work!
menzjj815menzjj815 on September 30th, 2010 02:31 am (UTC)
thank you so much for reading! I love writing introspective stuff too :D
Kimberleykimbari on September 30th, 2010 05:09 am (UTC)
This is beautiful, and so right it hurts. You're a wonderful writer and I'm a full-on certifiably crazy in love with Fringe. Pleased to meet you! ♥
menzjj815menzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:30 am (UTC)
pleased to meet you too! thank you so much for reading and commenting!
Pearl, the Ocean Gem...: joss is my mastereiregirl05 on September 30th, 2010 07:46 am (UTC)
Loved this . It was beautifully written.
menzjj815: olivia very lightmenzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:31 am (UTC)
thank you!
sparkles in the sunlight: f; peter/oliviaetoilefilante on September 30th, 2010 10:25 am (UTC)
This is so perfectly Olivia. I love it.
menzjj815: po closemenzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:31 am (UTC)
thank you! I'm glad you thought it was in character. :D
izbetterthanu: PO almost kissizbetterthanu on September 30th, 2010 11:29 pm (UTC)
i have about 5 songs with "belong" from Gavin Degraw to Lenny freaking Kravitz to go with this beauty. none could ever be a perfect match *bawls* btw i do believe in a couple of episodes we'll see Liv get a bit squirmy with her new fella. looking forward to that LOL. and if this is rusty, then give me rusty wifey.
menzjj815: peter leaning in kissmenzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:34 am (UTC)
AWWW THANK YOU BB! you don't know how much I've missed you lately. and I really do hope something like this happens in the show (although now that I've seen the preview for next week I know it does muahahahahaha)
Vivi: what are you doing here?!medras on October 1st, 2010 01:21 am (UTC)
Ohhhh I love this and I love second person and I love that Olivia still remembers Peterrr!
menzjj815menzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 02:32 am (UTC)
thank you so much for reading and commenting!
Elie: [fringe] alt!livia = lover girlmini_miss on October 1st, 2010 05:39 am (UTC)
This was lovely. I loved your insight into Olivia's mind, and I always like how you write in the second person. ♥
menzjj815menzjj815 on October 1st, 2010 11:56 pm (UTC)
thank you! I love writing in second person so I'm glad people enjoy it so much. :D
Alessia: fringe ≠ like two atoms in a moleculefloatinglight on October 4th, 2010 10:34 am (UTC)
This is amazing! You captured Olivia's mood so well. I particularly loved the last part.
Also: "And yet, you know he plays the piano, his favorite music is jazz, and that he carries a coin around in his pocket. He’s sarcastic and kind and maybe just a little bit lost."
So.much.Peter.
P.groffles on October 11th, 2010 11:45 pm (UTC)
HEY IM OLIVIABISHOP ON TUMBLR. READING YOUR FICS LIKE YEAH. I LOVED THIS ONE (: GREAT JOB!
Purpleyin/Hans: reachmissyvortexdv on February 17th, 2013 03:39 pm (UTC)
The sense of wrongness she feels in this fic is wonderfully strong, the battle she's having in her mind about what is true. Also love it for an excuse to have alt!team banter, always love that. Great fic.
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